GOD SHOULD HAVE KILLED ME NEW ALBUM BY NOT OF MAN Free Download
01. REEDUCATION
Hello its nice to see you today
welcome to your reeducation center
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we said get in your fucking chair
we hope you have a wonderful day inside your room
free thinkers are dangerous
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Thought crime endangers all citizens
free thinkers are dangerous
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free thinkers are dangerous
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Thought crime endangers all citizens
free thinkers are dangerous
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free thinkers are dangerous
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Thought crime endangers all citizens
free thinkers are dangerous
only authorized information is allowed
this concludes your reeducation for the day please wait for the guard to remove the restraints and have a wonderful day
02. 12 year old In Prison Lyrics
At 12 years old I was thrown into a home stripped down and photos taken
left completely alone broken to be beaten left to starve fight to survive
the others stuck in hell
this was a 5150 for a mother who hated me
this was a 5150 for a mother who hated me
from a mother who hated me
drugging me up just so I shut up
take those drugs you zombie
take those pill ill you don’t feel
your mother hates you cant you see
shut the fuck up and sit quietly
this was a 5150 for a mother who hated me
this was a 5150 for a mother who hated me
from a mother who hated me
drugging me up just so I shut up
don’t show emotion
don’t cry
don’t be afraid
be ready to die
at 12 tears old
prison life was sold
at 12 years old
prison life was sold
So hopefully you can see
pain rape and abuse are history
something I’ve had to overcome
so let’s see if you can stop me
this was a 5150 for a mother who hated me
this was a 5150 for a mother who hated me
from a mother who hated me
drugging me up just so I shut up
You made a monster
you can’t see me
you made a monster
I’m not me
you made a monster
always a part of me
03.THE BLADE
(SPOKEN WORD)
What seems to be the problem today?
Well Ive asked for help for years now.
Ive been left alone without any treatment.
what you expect over time when you purposely
destroy someone’s Mind for profit
O and one more thing Doctor I need your fucking neck
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH !!!!! (AHHHHHH!!!!)
(Verse 1)
you cant touch what I am hold the devil and god
on different hands and depending on who I am
you may be leaving some place eternally
slowly slide the blade
a sweet serenade of screams
surround me
the pleasure is orgasmic
oh please me
(Chorus 1)
one cut
shut the fuck up
cut two
I’m done with you
cut three
I warned you see
No need to warn
now you belong to me
(Verse 2)
make it last adrenaline
salt gasoline and razor blades
so clean
easy do they slide
like the rain on a windows side
each drop leave a tick
that sound is so fucking
orgasmic
(Chorus 2)
one cut
shut the fuck up
cut two
im done with you
cut three
I warned you see
No need to warn
now you belong to me
(Bridge 1)
This is the monster I can be
What I choose is not me
a little bit of the darkness from
the pleasure and all the pain ive seen
there is nothing more you can do to me
hurt, rape, beat, lock me up, kill me
bring it on im dead already
(Chorus 3)
one cut
shut the fuck up
cut two
I’m done with you
cut three
I warned you see
No need to warn
now you belong to me
DIE DIE DIE
As you see im no lie
04. I’M My OWN GOD
WHO’S NEXT!
FUCK!
(Verse 1)
here i come im not close to done
im here to rip and shred
all this noise in my head.
create the wall build it up
to watch it fall.
I am the vibration between dimensions
i do not exist expect in a shadow.
what you see if what you wont get.
When you hit that trigger you will regret.
(Chorus 1)
I am my own god and i could give a fuck
I am my own god and i could give a fuck
I am my own god and i could give a fuck
(Verse 2)
run hide here comes the dark light
so bright it burns at the very site
melting the skin like radiation
a cancer on the soul
a void a hole
a drive to control
my own life
without anymore strife
(Chorus 2)
I am my own god and i could give a fuck
I am my own god and i could give a fuck
I am my own god and i could give a fuck
(Bridge 1)
I was raised by preachers
and got laid in church
where the baptisms took place
and the lord saw it was good
only 9 years old getting some hole
from the 16 year old in the baptism pool
(Chorus 3)
I am my own god and i could give a fuck
I am my own god and i could give a fuck
I am my own god and i could give a fuck
SEE YOU ALL IN HELL
05. A CHILD OF DARKNESS
(Verse 1)
I wished for a life of happiness and peace
i wanted to see things so differently
but the path you get isn’t a choice
so you play the path that was handed to you
Grew up a soldier in hell’s arm
watching them all die snuff my telatubbies
watch people gutted quartered and killed
all because someone needed a thrill
(Chorus 1) I am a child of darkness
I use the lack of light to harness
the power that I’ve built inside
from fighting through every tide
(Verse 2)
Left alone, raped and beaten
my soul was sold before I was 6 years old
nothing is here and you won’t get a hold
I already own a few souls idiots
who signed them away as a child
I still hold the documents and smile.
You idiots can’t see
what this world has done to me,
(Chorus 2)
I am a child of darkness
I use the lack of light to harness
the power that I’ve built inside
from fighting through every tide
Left alone, raped and beaten
my soul was sold before I was 6 years old
nothing is here and you won’t get a hold
I already own a few souls idiots
who signed them away as a child
I still hold the documents and smile.
You idiots can’t see what this world has done to me
(Bridge 1)
DIDNT YOU KNOW TO THINK
DIDNT YOU KNOW TO FEAR
YOU MADE THE MONSTER
STANDING HERE
I TOLD YOU TO STAY AWAY
AND NOW I BEGGED TO BE LEFT ALONE
NOW MY BRAIN IS INVADED
AND YOU ARE STILL IN MY HOME
(Chorus 3)
I am a child of darkness
I use the lack of light to harness
the power that I’ve built inside
from fighting through every tide
Left alone, raped and beaten
my soul was sold before I was 6 years old
nothing is here and you won’t get a hold
I already own a few souls idiots
who signed them away as a child
I still hold the documents and smile.
You idiots can’t see what this world has done to me
THIS MONSTER THIS MONSTER
THIS MONSTER THIS MONSTER
THIS MONSTER DIDNT YOU KNOW
THIS MONSTER THIS MONSTER
THIS MONSTER
06. I AM THE DREAM KILLER
(Verse 1)
You may have eight arms
but you cant for play shit
like a useless tool, a hand up your ass
a vocal style that wont last
you get played
the songs have no point to be made
we understand the plastic is in our brain
but how did writing that change a damn thing.
(Chorus 1)
This boy went to UCLA
only to fail in humanity
only tell me the positive
because i cant handle the negative
so you liar and put on a face kid
You profited from slave labor
car, college, and drugs.
I am the dream killer and will always be
yes now you see that monster is me
(Verse 2)
Seems as though you like your drugs
from hard to soft you can make them all
that college life must have ruled it all
now you work for someone else
and sing music that will only get you so far
over complication is a trend not a burning star
(Chorus 2)
This boy went to UCLA
only to fail in humanity
only tell me the positive
because i cant handle the negative
so you liar and put on a face kid
You profited from slave labor
car, college, and drugs.
I am the dream killer and will always be
yes now you see that monster is me
(Bridge 1)
You remind me of Charles Manson
narcissistic and materialistic
and so much pride not understanding
this worthless tide.
20 years strong and still moving on
nothing they have done can stop me
but you couldn’t do it without them sadly
(Chorus 3)
This boy went to UCLA
only to fail in humanity
only tell me the positive
because i cant handle the negative
so you liar and put on a face kid
You profited from slave labor
car, college, and drugs.
I am the dream killer and will always be
yes now you see that monster is me
07. DADDY LIKE TO BEAT ME
(INTRO)
(Spoken Word )
DADDY WHY DO YOU HURT ME
DADDY WHY ARE YOU HITTING ME
(Verse 1)
Lets see if I get this right
you told me to put my hands on the table
and not to fucking fight
as you pulled out a whip
and started to slip
stupid fuck when I jumped
you were stumped
now you see
never fuck with me
You made me
I am you
and I can do worse too
not just to do damage
but for fun
(Chorus 1)
So let’s throw some punches
and see who’s left begging
for sympathy, you won’t get it
Not from me
if I could I would feed you to yourself
so understand this monster
you made has come home to get paid.
(HAHAHAHA) AHHHHHH!
(Verse 2)
I simple choice do I hit a child or not
well obviously or not to fucking smart
what does abuse teach a child
because a parent will hit you
noticed you never got what you wanted
I did it anyways and did it all my way
(Chorus 2)
So let’s throw some punches
and see who’s left begging
for sympathy, you won’t get it
Not from me
if I could I would feed you to yourself
so understand this monster
you made has come home to get paid.
(HAHAHAHA) AHHHHHH!
(Bridge 1)
You think I can’t remember the screams
the beating of my mom the missing teeth
and locking myself in the bathroom for safety
trauma is my life and it’s what has shaped me
understand not of man is not human and I’m not me
I a death machine on the hunt and you are all I can see
next time that bitch ass wife asks to see my crotch
get ready to fucking rock (ITS ON) You think I don’t remember
you abusive shit made me watch videos of myself that
I cant even remember as me. I have o childhood memories
(Chorus 3)
So let’s throw some punches
and see who’s left begging
for sympathy, you won’t get it
Not from me
if I could I would feed you to yourself
so understand this monster
you made has come home to get paid.
08. YOUR MOMMY WAS A BITCH (SHE IS MINE TOO
(Verse 1)
when you open your mouth all i can see is a giant shit come out no value to a thing you say you used me to get what you need to once you found someone to replace your mommy you decided to get married to her so fucking quickly, we all know you have no play and that you the biggest mommy’s boy who begs to get laid you will yell and scream while standing their but now im grown and have no need to worry about a home. my face through doors and walls and would hide away from you all. Then you lie and say at 12 years old a 300 pound woman was kicked to shit for real you fool.
(Chorus 1) YOUR MOMMY WAS A BITCH SHE IS MINE TOO YOUR MOMMY WAS A SLUT SHES MINE TOO YOUR MOMMY IS SHIT SHE IS MINE TOO YOUR MOMMY WILL BE DEAD SOON Punched and beat me just like he did you fool
(Verse 2) You cant remember you were too little and ask the bitch is this shit. She sat me down and apologized for beating me as a baby because she could deal. well that explains all her drug use and lack of meals macaroni and cheese, or noodles and butter
(Chorus 3) YOUR MOMMY WAS A BITCH SHE IS MINE TOO YOUR MOMMY WAS A SLUT SHES MINE TOO YOUR MOMMY IS SHIT SHE IS MINE TOO YOUR MOMMY WILL BE DEAD SOON Punched and beat me just like he did you fool
all that child support vanished into a bag of drugs she has. A literal gallon bag of pills and different highs to be had and you damn well know this isn’t a lie that opiate bitch can fucking die. Leave my baby photos and all to be tossed in the trash, she was my mother after all. Now i now what i am worth. How about i ruin all of your lives by exposing what you did to my life.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
(Chorus 4) YOUR MOMMY WAS A BITCH SHE IS MINE TOO YOUR MOMMY WAS A SLUT SHES MINE TOO YOUR MOMMY IS SHIT SHE IS MINE TOO YOUR MOMMY WILL BE DEAD SOON Punched and beat me just like he did you fool all that child support vanished into a bag of drugs she has. A literal gallon bag of pills and different highs to be had and you damn well know this isn’t a lie that opiate bitch can fucking die. Leave my baby photos and all to be tossed in the trash, she was my mother after all. Now i now what i am worth. How about i ruin all of your lives by exposing what you did to my life.
09. PROFIT OVER TREATMENT
what ?
Doctor hall,
I’m here because it’s an emergency. My PTSD is hitting hard and each night vodka is taking charge I’m asking for help the voices won’t end and I can’t stop them please the drinking isn’t helping and I seem to be addicted and I’m so conflicted I hate to drink but this making me sink please give me campral so I can leave this hell
IM BUSY HERE! I have others who need help I don’t care what you want or need please leave
(Verse 1)
broken down and alone
trying to find my way home
the drink is killing what left
I need help for my head
but when I have tried
I seem to be denied
I never ask for shit
Unless I really need it
(Chorus 1)
DR HALL YOU FUCK
DR HALL YOU SUCK
DR HALL WOULDN’T TREAT ME
HE WANTED PROFIT OVER TREATMENT
FUCK THE SYSTEM
YOU ALL KILL ME
(Verse 2)
A safety check on my home motherfucker
you sent me away leave me alone I asked for help and now this is abuse and harassment you cooze
I could give a shit what you think of me when I paid you all you did was ignore me Treatment is cash when someone is dying from an illness don’t forget I offered to pay you greedy fuck now our scared of me
(Chorus 2)
DR HALL YOU FUCK
DR HALL YOU SUCK
DR HALL WOULDN’T TREAT ME
HE WANTED PROFIT OVER TREATMENT
FUCK THE SYSTEM
YOU ALL KILL ME
(Bridge)
This is for you
the abusive fool
when someone comes for help
and you are their doctor too
you send them away in an emergency
the suddenly forget when you think you can’t profit
how many addictive drugs did you sell
more than any I’ve had off the street
burn in hell
(Chorus 3)
DR HALL YOU FUCK
DR HALL YOU SUCK
DR HALL WOULDN’T TREAT ME
HE WANTED PROFIT OVER TREATMENT
FUCK THE SYSTEM
YOU ALL KILL ME
if you feel like you want to sue know we know every bit of that conversation was recorded not just by you so let’s play the game and see who is being honest about this you fucking bitch
bitch
DR HALL YOU FUCK
f you feel like you want to sue know we know every bit of that conversation was recorded not just by you so let’s play the game and see who is being honest about this you fucking bitch